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I'm doing quadratics at the moment, I can't split the x.

I failed a quadratics test last year, and I don't fail tests!

I have to get up early tomorrow, ugh. I decided to do more Indonesian, in the morning. . . . .

I've been really tired lately, and I also have a physics test tomorrow. Oh well, I like physics, and chemistry.

I have my work experience organised for later in the year too! Yay! Another thing out of the way, I think I'm going to change the top of my blog, maybe redo the whole thing.

I'll start now, since quadratics mess with my head . . . .

I just bought one! Yay! It was on special because all the old ones are being cleared, the new ones are coming in on Thursday so it cost me $246.05.

School tomorrow, ugh.

Well, it's not hard, just hard to find the time to do everything, and it's really hot up here, so I'll be leaving to do more assignments, study etc.

Man! Assignments, Investigations, Tests, Essays, Responses, all too much! Also Prac write ups, orals in a foreign language!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

At least I finished one assignment early.

And I've been driving and I'm getting better, must go now, very hot.

Selamat Siang dan Selamat Belajar!

Today I woke up, my mum woke me up at 8:22am, and I had to start work at 8:30am. Great start hey?

I got to work only a few minutes late, slow open again, but it was alright.

Then my manager asked me to work an extra 3 hours that night, because it was a public holiday, and I get more money per hour,  so I took it.

In between my shifts I went swimming in my pool, my first shift I also finished late because someone else was late.

I went back to work and it was chaos! Man, we couldn't keep up, people everywhere, cars lined up through the drive thru, running out of food. Man, my legs are sore. It was so busy I stayed an extra half an hour, so I ended up working 9 hours today. Not bad, but tiring.

I went home and got in the spa in the pool, it isn't heated yet but it is still nice for sore feet. Then we got in the pool and my mum even came in!

I need to have a shower soon, my friends are coming over tomorrow. I also have to clean my room.

I also have to pick up my school books tomorrow, joy. School starts on monday, and I'd rather work than go to school, but I need my education.

I'm going to get my L's on friday, if you don't know what that is, it is a learners permit to drive a car. I could have got it like 3 months ago, but I didn't. I think I should get it on the first go.

I can't wait to start driving, my dad is happy to give me lessons, he has already taught me when to change gears in a manual by showing me. I want to buy a car but I don't have enough money for registration and insurance, but even a cheap car would be fine, I would also prefer power steering.

I will just wait until I get my P's maybe, which if you don't know is almost a full license. When you are a learner you either do a log book or a test to get you P's and you keep them until you are 19 or for 2 years, whichever is longer. You can then drive without a licensed driver, unlike having your L's, but there are still restrictions like L's like having no amount of alcohol in you blood and not going over 100km/hr, which at learner level is 80km/hr with some exemptions.

Hopefully I should earn a bit more money and save a bit more too to maybe buy a car.

I have been writing for a long time now and I must shower and clean my room.

Here is an update just for you Jaws. . .

I'm trying to find a picture to upload. . .

here you go. . .

It's nelsie again.

I love my Nelsie.

This is my cat Nelson, yesterday, he was sleeping on his back, in a very very deep sleep, so, I snapped some pics of him.

Have a look;

This is Nelson, peacefully sleeping. . .

Then we attacked him with the props. . .Nelsie fell asleep watching TV. . .

Nelsie fell asleep reading a book. . .

Nelsie fell asleep on the phone. . .

Nelsie loves to sleep with his friends :P

Nelsie ate too much!

Nelsie the magician!

That's all the pics I can be bothered posting now, if you wanna see more though, leave a comment saying you wanna see more Nelson and I'll post some more. OH OH!!!!

I haven't posted the best on of them all. . . . .

Nelsie drank too much. . . .

If someone doesn't like me, why can't they just leave me alone?

My sister comes in and annoys me, so instead of hitting her like I usually would I tell my parents, do they bother doing anything? No. They tell me to shutup.

Nobody understands I have had such a hard time lately, alot of the last year and a half I just want to have not happened because of the way I have been hurt. And when I was really hurt, nobody was there for me.

All the pictures that were taken now have to be destroyed or left in the cupboard to be found ten years later and cry all over again about how much I was hurt.

Looking up, I have been working so much lately, I'm not allowed to take anymore shifts, if I do, they have to pay me overtime, which they don't want to do. Also I am getting paid for two public holidays in one week.

Pretty much the only thing that looks good for me is my money and my pay packet at the moment, I have nothing to look forward to but that. The joys of every Wednesday.

Why am I me?

as if anyone cares. . . .

My last exam was today, Indonesian, I finished eary and was very bored, i finished like 40 mins early, and some people finished earlier.

Me and 2 of my friends had Christmas a month early because one of my friends is going to France. I got the 10 Things I Hate About You DVD and we gave one of my friends the Making Of The Lord Of The Rings Movie Books, and my other friend we gave a space puzzle, which she had no idea about and loved, and a UV light pen, where you can only see writing under a UV Light.

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After my exam, we went into the city, to the Magic Cave, we were gonna see Santa but the line was like 2 hours long, so we went in to the magic cave and left soon after. Then I got a Boost and a Twix bar and we went to this comic book shop. It was pretty cool. I'll go there again. Then 2 of my friends had to leave so then there were 4. We walked back down Rundle Mall and one of my friends wanted KFC, the other wanted Maccas, we got to KFC and the place was packed so they both went to maccas, and then we went to hungry jacks to get one of my friends a burger. Then we walked down Rundle St and I went to morning glory quickly and had a look at pencil cases. I found one but didn't buy it. We went past many shops and saw many items of jewellery we fell in love with and went to this shop my friend saw a really pretty dress in. It was good. She would look excellent. We had to detour for that, then we sat in the east parklands for a while and played on the playground and headed back down rundle st, rundle mall and then to adelaide arcade. I was so sad the irish shop is gone! I wanted a triquetra. Then another friend was going another way so we hugged, and we were looking at shops and found this weird one. sort of like a cult shop, there was like athames and stuff. But we found a ring for my friend, AND I FOUND A TRIQUETRA PENDANT! I want it! I will get it and buy a chain as well. It is $26 and I found another pendant I want. So cool. Then we walked to my friends bus stop, we talked a bit, hugged and then i left to go to my bus stop. Now I'm home, my feet hurt so much.

And you think with 1007 views I could at least get one comment. . .

I was just talking to my dad about my exam and I think I completely screwed the essay up. It was a hard question, what can you do?

I still have a chance with the close reading though.

I still hate english, I should go study science soon, shouldn't I?

I just got home from my English exam. I think I didn't do too well. I was writing my essay and I'm thinking "I can see my A slipping to a C"

I didn't talk to the other person except when she said "How did you go" I replied "Crap" and walked off to go home.

All that is left of year 10 is exams and Ausralian Business week. man I'm happy. I don't like school and the sooner I leave the better. Only 2 years left! But after I leave I'm going to be going to university anyways. . .so so much for ridding of study!

I'm seriously almost had my legs drop off on friday night! I was so tired on saturday, I went to bed and 9:30 but I couldn't get to sleep. And instead of studying today I went shopping. But I'll get over it. I got my layby! YAY! I have to go now. Russell Coights Celebrity Challenge is on tonight, I love him, he is so funny. You just gotta love Glenn Robbins on Kath & Kim!

I have almost finished year 10!

One more day to go! Yes! Though the drama and tension between a certain person still remains and the truth is unfolded.

I have exams next week and I have started studying so far, alot of maths last night, but tv is getting a bit better, especially on free-to-air. I'm working tomorrow night. I wake up, go to school, go home, go to work, and go home and sleep. Thats my day. Not much, but I sorta need the money.

Studying study study. I only came on to photocopy stuff and the internet was on, so yeah.

My exams are in less than a week and I haven't started studying yet. I'm not stressed or worried at all. What's wrong with me? My friends are stressed out of their minds, and I keep asking for more work! (At my work) I put my name down for a 7 hour shift on Friday night, and my friends wouldn't think of working in the week leading to exams.

I can't live like this! Not doing homework and not being motivated to do school work! Next year it will take a toll. A hard one. And year 12 will be the hardest year of my life. Or maybe university, but maybe not, because the fact that I am at school for like 8 hours a day, seems like I shouldn't need to do homework. Uni is different. But anyway. This computer is like calling my name saying "USE ME! USE ME! YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!" man it's annoying.

To top it all off, I lost my science sheets, for physics. And as well as exams I have a science test tomorrow and my Indonesian conversation exam is in the next few days. I'm starting to realise I'm screwed but I fail to do anything about it.

Somebody needs to scare me into doing homework or study soon. I mean, my last exams taught me bad habits, getting pretty good scores and studying hardly at all.

CRAM CRAM CRAM. Thats how I hope my sunday to be.

I also have a music review due. I will have to do that soon as well.

Why can't this computer blow up when I want it to? Or be used by a member of my family?

I spose I should try and study at least before 8pm.

Wish Me Luck.

If anyone is there.

I decided, I want to turn my life around.

I want to get fit, become healthy, be a better person, stop being so damn annoying, not clash with my friends so much, clean my room more often or keep it clean, start studying and doing homework all that kind of stuff.

The summer holidays are coming up, I'll try but I can see now it won't work. I don't like to eat healthy stuff, greens aren't my favourite. I started eating more fruit lately, I haven't been eating nearly as many chips as I used to. I want to actually exercise and swim and feel good.

This is probably a load of crap but I'll continue. I want to meet new people, be more friendly if I can. I need people to help me as well, I have trouble getting my friends to go somewhere with me sometimes and it seems like they leave me out of alot of stuff too. Like movies and stuff. They might think I'm working or something, but they could at least ask.

My life is getting pretty boring, I mean, I go to school, go to work and play on the computer and occasionally watch tv and do homework/study. I really should be studying now. I want to be more social, but my friends are more into study than I am and do a hell of alot more homework and probably get stressed out about it.

I need motivation to study and do homework and to ride my bike as well. Exercising usually depends on how much homework I plan to do and the weather.

Maybe I should study before I go to work today. . . .I'm open to encouragements and comments.

study study study. . . .ARGH!

Well, I am glad it's friday. I just finished my friday night shift at work. I'm glad about that too. I'm worried about one of my friends though. She isn't herself at the moment. If only she knew that I was genuinely worried. I wish she would talk to me about whatever it is. I also feel bad about saying something I shouldn't have. And I feel really really bad. And I want to ring that person, but I can't, because she isn't acting herself. Maybe on Sunday. It makes me feel sad that she is like that. I mean, I could have burst into tears today she wasn't saying anything. I mean, she is the life of the party, the one who starts most conversations. So we basically had nothing to talk about. She was a bit better at the end of the day. I spoke to someone else about it, see if she could maybe talk to her, not necessarily tell me, but at least get her better. She said that my friend may be stressed over exams and stuff. I don't know if she really knows that I am worried, I mean, really worried. She went from bubbly one day, then 2 days later, almost dead. I don't know what to do about it really, when they don't talk. I mean I can keep something to myself, in other words, a secret. This is why I feel really bad about telling her something else which I mentioned before. Only because I wasn't too happy with the person who told me did I tell. I now wish I hadn't. And I need to tell both of them, and I don't know how. I don't know how she'll react, and I hope she'll stay around for me to explain if I do tell her.

This is a mess. A big mess. I don't know what to do really. I need to talk to someone.

A big, big mess.

stuff is getting better, talking to Lexy. Hmmm. Lexy mentioned something she shouldn't have in science and of course I got fixated and I can't get off that stuff. Then she told me and it wasn't all that great, don't know why it was hidden. Then. . .it was weird.

Anyways.

It's better.

I'm not feeling good. It's weird. I'm not happy and I don't know what to do.

I feel like I have been lied to so much.

I JUST WANT THIS YEAR TO END FOR GODS SAKE!

I find it very hard and awkward at school, and I don't know how I stay happy in other ways.

I feel like crying again.

It all started when I couldn't sleep last night, tossing and turning in my bed until 1:30 am when I finally got to sleep. I couldn't sleep because:

1. It was hot


2. I strangely wasn't tired


3. That thought that Beanie had told me came back into my head (ew)


4. It was one of a few days which I don't like and only comes to us girls


5. I was uncomfortable


6. Daylight savings started Sunday morning at 3 am

so anyways, I woke up at like 7am, went back to sleep and got up at 7:30am and got dressed but I couldn't really think. I could hardly stand up. (I think my hippocampus was still full and still is the way I went at school.) Lexy still wasn't talking to us and it was weird. Beanie was acting weird (I told you!) and it was scaring me. I am still not completely sure why but I have some idea. I was hypo from recess to lunch and at lunch it became too much. Beanie disappeared and Jaws and I couldn't find her. Then we found her and someone else, I won't mention her name, took her to talk to Lexy and I don't think there was too much luck. Another group of us were talking about it and complaining, sorta bitching, but not really, but the names she called us. Phwoar! (And not to our face either) Anyways, Beanie and girl who will not be named went upstairs and I became not hungry and feeling a bit sick. Then I just felt like crying so I started talking to Talisha who was talking to us downstairs and I started crying a bit because it is so hard to do anything at school when this person is around when you are tired, you have bad hormones, she refuses to talk and when she does she says it so sarcastically it loses all meaning and we were at school.

So then I am comforted by Gumby and Jaws while I sit there and then Jaws goes downstairs and gets Beanie and they come back up and I get lots of hugs. (Yay! I like hugs!) We sit there and sorta talking not much. The bell goes, so we get up and go to computing. Beanie didn't come because Lexy finally decided to talk to her and Beanie must have said I was really upset because in computing I left to go to the toilet. My teacher got worried about me and sent Jaws after me to see if I was okay. Then when I got back Lexy pulled me out of the classroom to see why I was upset. This was weird.

She asks me, I tell her I don't want to come to school where noone talks and it's cold and awkward. Then she asks me how I knew about what happened. I told her I was there when it all started, but I was too tired and annoyed to tell her that I was really the one who started and I do agree with Beanie just as Jaws does. I don't know if she knows. This other girl who has been talking to her has been telling me stuff and I don't know who to beleive! I don't know, I have felt so bad about some of the things Lexy has done to me, like when she refused to talk to me for something someone else said Beanie did a few months ago and didn't tell me why or apoligise. I found out from Jaws who was away.

But it was weird, she didn't seem like she meant anything by talking to me and wanted to hear why I was upset for her enjoyment or something. There was no expression on her face or anything. I think she wasn't telling the truth in some way because she wanted to know how I knew what was happening. And I knew that she knew how I knew. I couldn't be bothered doing anything in computing and I got another hug. (YAY!)

Then as we were getting let out of school Lexy told Beanie something else and I think I know who it was about, not me, I know but I know. So I am sort of upset. And I don't know whether I want to bother to sort things out with Lexy or just let it settle over the holidays or what to do.

Why does this always happen to me?

Lexy got pissed at Beenie, but not me.

She's a bit stupid sometimes. (Hopefully you don't read this, like you would anyways)

I had a music assessment today, scary, screwed up a bit I think, missed notes, can't do dynamics for shit man! But I want to do year 11 music and I'm gonna maybe try and work it out for piano, theory and one on one time out of classes with one unit over the whole year. Oh well, I gotta find out which line music is on to start with anyways.

I would post something else here but people would see it and someone else doesn't want them to know. (Shit, wrong thing there) OMG, I'm swearing so much.

I'm doing Indonesian next year, I'm trying my hardest to get a merit award. I just don't want to get below full marks for my end of year exam soon.

I suppose I could practise on here, there are other blogs in Indonesian I've noticed, I find it quite hard to read them though. I can say on saturday I play basketball;
Pada hari sabtu saya bermain bola basket.
Theres a start.

I just got the song "Adelaide" by Ben Folds. If you haven't make an effort to hear it, it's about my city, it's a great song, I love it, it's got the best piano music in it. I wanna learn to play it. I'll get the lyrics for you. It is a really good song, I LOVE IT SO MUCH! also, "It's Too Late" by Evermore and "Out Of The Blue" by Delta Goodrem are my other favourites now.

One of the reasons I want to do, well the main reason for wanting to continue with music is learning how to write music. I would love to be able to write music. First I have to get some poetry in order though. My Dad wants me to write songs like Coldplay. God how I'd love that. And I still really want a piano.

I still have to learn cadences and stuff, but I don't know if that counts as much in Pop music. The whole time I have been writing this I have been listening to Adelaide. It's quite amusing. Now I want the album.

Heres the lyrics:

Adelaide

Adelaide
On a plane
Far from the united states
Of LA
Dropping in from outer space
Takes a day
Now I see the Bogans
At the motor race
Here you know the world could turn
Or crash and burn
And you would never know it
Going where the air is clear
There’s better beer in Adelaide

Charlie L. Smith's forty
Someone spiked my rice
The rest, history
Now I am a fixture down

Rundle Mall
Watching as the locals pass
Silver balls
I can see their eyes around
They’re pointed down
They scan the spanning sidewalks
Learning that there is no hurry
Fuss or worry
Adelaide

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

It’s raining
In Adelaide
A face is waiting in a window
A voice says
Why Adelaide
You could live anywhere and I say
Because I want to
Because I want to
I really really want to

And you know the earth could turn
Or crash and burn
And you would never know it
Really got to make it to the finish line
Get the record done on time
Pack the bags
And catch a flight
And you can kiss my ass goodbye
On Adelaide
Adelaide
Adelaide
Adelaide

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(If you can see highlights, that was my search term.)

Anyways, it's centered now and annoying me, but, NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! YAY!

Smell Ya Later!

I have 3 gmail accounts to giveaway left!

get em!

Yes, I survived!

The team we played were hell easy. They have like no skills at all. Wasn't at all bitchy. But thats just one team. The others looked quite good. But I scored 22 of our 43 points. My dad was very surprised. I like it, I'll just have to see how we go in the future. I don't want to play the other team from our club, because I think theyre better, oh well. I love playing basketball again. And the umpires were actually good, no juniors, they were older, more experienced. So yeah. It was good, hopefully I can get fitter, and thinner.

Later!

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